I don't know how to behave or how to think anymore. I'm feeling like SHIT now. I don't know whether i should be nice? and let ppl take advantage of me...or should i be mean and fuck care people. Ya fuck care.. coz i had enough. Every bit of shit i am suppose to give in to u. Treating someone nice means liking that person? esp the opposite sex? please lah...either u ar fucking narrow or ur space is too little to be even called narrow. I know when u are kidding and when u are not...dun try to fool me, coz i'm not dumb.

My mum saes " juz be nice, don't let ppl bother wat u do.." fuck being nice aready..fuck being wat i wan to do. Coz apparently everyone is picking on ur doings. Wat? give a few praises of me and i would happily bounce to ur side and help u? wake up tat ideal moron...i dun give a damn abt ur praises if u think i do den continue in ur lala land. I don't like to treat ppl how the way i wan to be treated back. I always learn this since young. Apparently it isn't well taught to some people, or either that i shouldn't be learning it. For fuck sake, i won't like anyone ok? WON'T
LIKE ANYONE! DON'T use some stupid psyco method to pull me in. Sensative? please...it irritates me to the core. When i wan to treat ppl nice...u give me tat fuck face. Seriously sometimes i dunnoe wat is RIGHT n WRONG now. I juz wan to be who i WAS. I don't care u like me or not seriously...it doesn't matter to me from the start. Showing concern...heh~ crap. All this are totally crap.

Don't treat u nice u sae " y u treat me like tat" treat u nice other ppl sae " wah u like him ah treat him differently..must be u like him" wateva lah seriously...i had it up to here..like den like lah continue ur bladdy nonsense. I've got nth to sae...sometimes i juz wan to hide or be alone. Anti-social? u bet. Treat ppl nice is wrong...treat ppl not nice is obviously also wrong. I am feeling disappointed and angry, for the narrow and selfish way of treating a friend.

None to speak...many to listen.
wat a way to start the new year with..