I was looking forward for today...but some how it didn't end quite well, for me that is. I watched Cursed with my classmates =) tats y i was looking forward to it, coz they are such nice ppl. The show was...eh...alright la. But 1 scene u can get a shock like 4 times lor!! i was like jumping off my chair million of times! I rate the show 3 out of 5. Hahaa..i find the guy in it kinda cute xD

Ok, here the irritating part. I was really sad or angry or wateva! i don't even know how i feel. I felt like crying...at the same time screaming at the same time throwing temper. For that person who called me...sry but u won't understand n u nv will. Stop forcing me...i dont think u will understand wat i went thru. Coz to u its juz an incident, but to me it isn't. Fuck it! if u sae u understand... u go experience wat i hav experienced den come n sae u understand. I'm not gaining any self pity here. Coz i don't need ur pity, and not that i hate my life or something. I hate my past.... I'm scared. U said it was yrs ago...so wat? wat happen yrs ago doesn't matter any more now? I hav forgiven but i hav not forgotten...I can't forget! If it was easy to forget i would hav long forgotten. No i can't sae to forget..coz it sounds too easy. It is haunting..every bladdy single day. Don't eva think u know me well! I know i have been saying this alot of times...but some ppl juz can't get it into their thick skull. I don't wan to feel treaten...Y do u keep telling me wat u think?! wat abt me? I am being hard on myself to be strong...and not let these emotions take over me. I tried so bladdy hard... I try not to let others see my weakness. With so much of trying it feels like i am no more the same person anymore. Hah! I really wish i could sae how the way u sae it...tat easy and calm tone.

Don't...dont eva think u noe me well. I might looked that i'm all gd and well...but i'm not. I'm rotten. I'm really trying my best to put up a strong front. I am really trying my best...pls..juz pls stop pushing me to the edge. Thank u...